Returned and rebuilding
May 15th, 2007 by

Sorry for the long, unannounced hiatus. There were quite a few big decisions in my personal life over the past several months that interfered with both my blogging time and my access to the internet. I am writing now from a new town, a new place of residence, a new vocation, and most importantly, a new lease on life. I finally feel that I am at a point where I might be able to build a fulfilling and healthy life for myself, alone. Also, there are quite a few poor decisions from the past year that need to be rectified. I had read studies and anecdotal evidence of widow(er)s making poor financial and life choices after the death of their partner, and I am afraid to tell you that possessing the knowledge alone does not protect you from succumbing to an increased rate of mistakes and missteps. Ah well, I have all of the time in the world to rebuild myself into a stronger and better version. And for that time I remain eternally grateful.

In addition to announcing a return to regular blog updates here, I wanted to inform the readers of this corner of the web of a new online service which I was invited to try. The service is a newly launched online memorial site, The site allows one to create a lovely memorial for a loved one who has passed, creating a place where people all over the world can meet and remember their loved one. My page is here, and I encourage you to check it out and add your own! It’s really sort of a neat concept.

Thank you for your patience.

One Response to “Returned and rebuilding”

  1. annmarie Says:

    Nice to hear from you again Amanda.
    So, I’m curious, where did you decide to move? I knew it was contingent upon grad school.
    In regard to making “poor decisions” in our widowhood… as I complete my tenth year, I look back at many decisions that I cringe at now. At the time, there was no other choice, and yet, looking back, one wonders, how different it would be if…
    My city’s historian once told me, in the gym’s locker room, as I was ranting about the doctor’s negligence with Peter, “there are no if’s in history.”
    It’s true, if’s are more a part of the illusion than the reality of our lives.
    Certainly, choices pave our ways. Those of us who are privileged enough to have choices, walk many different walks, some easier than others.
    It’s all the process of our lives. I am constantly relearning to surrender to what my life offers and accept the choices that I make along the way.

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